3 things that made my binge eating worse
Three things that I was doing thinking it would help my emotional and binge eating (it made it worse):
1. Intermittent fasting – before having clear hunger and satiety cues, my eating window was basically a binge. I was eating everything in sight because I thought I was allowed to. Granted I wasn’t gaining weight but waiting to eat only so you can binge is a slippery slope to a very unhealthy relationship with food.
2. I was planning my cheat days. Being very strict until Sunday was my way of giving myself the much deserved reward on Sunday that would turn into a massive binge. The problem was that the binge would continue for several days and made me feel awful about myself.
3. I was restricting all the time either physically or mentally and I refused to buy my favorite foods. I thought I had no control over them. Actually, the more I was restricting,the more I became obsessed with those particular foods and obviously I would binge on them mindlessly to the point of feeling sick.
Recovery was long and it took years to unlearn the thinking and behaviour I had around food but it was worth it. It’s not a linear process but it comes with food freedom on the other side.
I don’t have cheat days or cheat meals, all foods can fit into my life, I fast if I want to not because I feel I have to and I don’t restrict myself anymore.